Home » Mom Madness » Hanging On…

Hanging On…

I know it's just water and light...but to me it has always been more...

I know it’s just water and light…but to me it has always been more…

When people are caring for their dying loved ones, painfully aware of the finality of life and the enemy of time, they often feel compelled to spend every waking moment caring for their loved ones…sometimes to their own detriment. Working in hospice, I too embrace this awareness, and I find myself feeling guilty for longing for time away from my children. I try to make every free moment theirs because I don’t want to miss a beat of their lives. But without taking the time to rest (which is not the same as sleeping) and recharge, exhaustion sets in and the quality of those moments diminishes. I tell my patients’ families all the time that there is no shame in needing, wanting, or taking a break from being a caregiver. In fact, taking time away can help you be a better caregiver. By not running on empty, you actually have more to give. I can accept that I definitely NEED some time away from my children (and some time WITH my husband). The challenge comes with the HOW of making that happen. I need respite…like YESTERDAY! I should not have waited this long…but it took me this long to see it.

As I was dictating all of this into my phone, I noticed a rainbow in the sky. It escorted me almost the whole way to work. And I felt something I hadn’t felt in a while: HOPE. I am not alone…and this too shall pass. I just hope it passes before I do.


One thought on “Hanging On…

  1. I’m here… and I don’t mind helping so you can have time for you and your hubby.
    Being a new wife… I have gotten scared because of my already hectic schedule and his. So I am now starting to truly see this new fear of not being around enough, for myself and to be a caregiver (as a wife). That’s not even with little ones; hugs and kisses. Anything, let me know.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s